Sometimes I feel like I stumble back

“Please God, break every attachment that keeps pulling me back to what you already rescued me from.”

—I think that this ask, this prayer, can bring a lot of painful healing. Because breaking those attachments, walking away, from things that have brought you pain and comfort can be hard. I don’t think we realize what things truly are pulling us back until God opens our eyes to it.

—That being said, I want to be free from the things that pull me away from a God centered life, because God comes first, because all I have to give in in thanks for the way he has blessed me, molded me is my entire life. I am so blessed and Thankful that he called me by name.

—We are all only human and it’s hard to let go of the things of the flesh, the things bring us comfort. I know the thing that I need to break away from, but I don’t feel strong enough to do it, to return to the flesh feeling of being alone. But thats the thing it’s a feeling, it’s an emotion and our life cannot be led by emotions. Emotions are not trust worthy and they tangle in our minds, tangle into our desires, being lead by emotions takes out the option to be obedient and be lead by the Spirit.

—I want to grow stronger in God’s word, to grow in His grace. I know deep down that this season in my life is for that. I feel deep down that I am supposed to wait in the loneliness, to fully focus on God, and me secondly. It’s hard.

—One day at a time, each day I pray, “that the Holy Spirit continues to show me the things that I need to work on, the things I need to walk away from. That my eyes and ears are opened to the word of God.” Because with each day He grants me a new day, Another day to move, do better, be more obedient until one day its just who I am. Molding and shaping my life to a God centered life.